Thursday, 8 January 2009

Guilt

Today I called M's favourite. That makes her sound like a medieval monarch - authoritative, spiteful and fickle. I called her favourite to let him know that I would not behave as she was. I would be generous and helpful. I would come back to work for my two final days and I would assist in anyway I could, now and in the future. Managers can call me if they need information, I will not be petty. He said that yes, M spoke to him after our conversation and she felt guilty, I sounded dreadful and she felt bad. Not trying to be too unkind, this does not sound like the M I know. It sounds like the M she wants him to think she is.

I felt like advising him (although I didn't), how quickly one can go from being her favourite to being one who isn't fit even for eye contact or respect.

Actually, I think he was right. She is feeling guilty. In describing her behaviour to a relative who had gone through similar experiences, their guilt makes them behave even worse to the person they are treating badly.... as they are constant reminder of how badly they have treated them.

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